Why is waiting so difficult?It seems like such a simple task. We all do it everyday. Lines at the store, your friend to go out for the night, that person you’re supposed to spend the rest of your life with, death: we all wait for them. But for me it can seem so overwhelming.I’m not very good at waiting. I’m impatient. I don’t really know how to handle my time. The lulls in my life seem like abysmal pits. I feel like I’m waiting for my life to really start. I’m 21. How has that not happened? This is my life…why don’t I take it by the horns and make some excitement? Because I’m waiting.I think part of my youth still doesn’t understand the wait. I guess we need waiting for context of those moments that are just the epitomes of “arriving,” that is to say that we have made it to that moment we were waiting for. But damn it really sucks.I want to hold the one I love, have a mojito, have some sweet music lavishing the sun on my face, feel the sand in my toes, the wind through my hair, holding in the laughter from seeing a puppy splashing in the ocean. I live for those moments. I haven’t had one of those moments in awhile. I know it’s about me going and finding those moments. If you’re tired of waiting then you wouldn’t wait, would you? Well…honestly…I’m as close to that moment as I have ever been in my life. So why am I so scared?
( first two artworks done by myself)